Sunday, April 12, 2009

Baby Robins



Once upon a time, or just yesterday, I saw a robin in the backyard. He had gold lines around his eyes, and so when he looked at me he seemed to be wearing glasses. He hopped down the wooden steps where Jack likes to jump off, hopped up on the rock that Jacob likes to climb, and then hopped across the dirt under the roses that Tehya likes to pick. Stopping once, briefly, he turned his head sideways as if to listen for underground worm sounds. He must have heard some because he began to chirp excitedly. Continuing on his inspection tour of the yard, he hopped to a sprinkler head and stood there like a king of the grass. "Chirp, chirp," he called to living things. To my great surprise, a lovely, fat (with eggs) robin jumped out from under the deck and joined him in conversation.

Flying quickly to a familiar branch of the cherry tree he seemed to say, "This spot is perfect, just like the place where we built last year's nest."
"You silly daddy bird," says mother robin chirping back. "It is the place. Maybe a fall wind blew our nest down to the ground and some sweet boy took the nest to school for show and tell. I like this yard and love the tree. I know it will be full of wormy cherries. Let's live here."

I wanted to tell the robins to be careful. A fat, orange cat lives in this yard. This is her yard to explore at night and sleep in during the daylight. But I didn't know how to speak robin, so I just watched. Robins, take care.

If the robin family does come back to our tree I think I will make a collection of building materials: newly cut hair, stuffing from quilts, yarn pieces, stuffing from quilts, and soft flannel. Scattering them on the ground, I will wait for mother robin to fly over and see them. "Oh, my," she will say. "They are having a sale. I think I will choose the hair and the yarn and the stuffing. The colors are perfect for my nest, just like the ones I saw at Mt. Vernon."

Little ones, do you remember last summer's picnic under the cherry tree? We ate sandwiches on a nice blanket and watched the mommy and daddy robins fly to the nest above our heads. All afternoon long we watched the parade: Mother robin flew in with a worm, naked baby birds popped their heads up all saying, "Me! Me! Me! My turn! My turn! Feed me the worm, I'm starving." Mother robin stuffed the worm in a beak and flew away. Dad comes in with his worm and the babies cry again. "FEED ME!"

Perhaps I should plant worm seeds this summer and grow fat juicy worms for the baby robins. Although I don't think Costco or Target or Walmart have such silly seeds for sale.

And so my dear little ones, you too are my baby birds. Your mommy and daddy bring you pizza and cookies and noodles and apples, but never worms. Sometimes you cry and say me, me, me, my turn, my turn, I'm starving. When nighttime comes you snuggle in your soft cozy beds with quilts and warm blankets, say your prayers, and know that you have a mommy and daddy who love you as much as the robins loved their babies. Sleep well, little birdies.

Love,
Grandma

Monday, April 6, 2009

HOLD MY HAND A LITTLE TIGHTER

For Tehya, Jacob, Jack and Savannah

Everything scared me. Like swings. What if I pumped too hard, went too high, so high that my hands let go of the chain and I fell off on my head and my face squished into a flat lumpy thing and no one knew who I was ever again.

Or maybe those airplanes I could hear at night carried bad people who would parache out of the plane as it flew over my house, and they would land on my roof. Dressed all in black the bad people would climb down the brick walls like geckos, sneak in through the open window, take all of my toys and cookies and leave me nothing to do but dusting and vacuuming and cleaning, forever.

Then there were apples. Oh my, big, shiny, red apples. Juicy, sweet apples all crispy and white sleeping in the refrigerator, just waiting for me to take a big crunchy bite with my loose tooth. Snapping, grabbing, that apple would snatch my wiggly tooth right from my mouth leaving me nothing but blood and a hole and a tooth for the tooth fairy. I would like my tooth under my pillow and worry if I would wake up in the morning and find pennies, or nickels, or dimes, or spiders, or caterpillars, or scorpions.....

But the scariest thing of all started in August. School. Kindergarten. Four blocks, two streets, two hours away from home. So many questions: Where is the bathroom? Is my teacher nice? Does she know my name? Do I have to write my name? Will I ever find my way home again?

On the first day of school, my Mom and I walked together on that long, long journey to school. Step by step, past barking dogs, neighbors, across busy streets, closer and closer to school. Then something magic happened, something so wonderful that I have never, ever forgotten that moment. I looked up at my wonderful Mother and said, "Hold my hand a little tighter." And she did. Squeezing my hand so tightly, her bravery traveled from her heart through our hands to my heart and I felt no fear.

And so, beloved grandchildren, please know that there is always a hand to hold. Holding hands a little tighter always makes you feel better. Mom and Dad, Grandma and Grandpa like nothing more than to hold your hand and give you courage every day. If you need to be braver than you feel, just say, "Hold my hand a little tighter," and we will.

Love, Grandma